Saturday, January 29, 2011

The Morning After = )

I want to make an edit to my post from yesterday...About a MILE in I wanted to give up...not a minute I have issues, but I am happy to report that they are not as severe as I had previously reported.

I woke up this morning and I am still feeling pretty accomplished! oh and SORE. The last half mile on the treadmill I was really starting to feel cramping in my left leg. I kept going though! Even though while I was dealing with the pain and nearing the end of the finish line I set out for myself. My husband came into the basement and just stood there. THEN he lit a cigarette! Are you kidding me? I told him breathlessly that he needed to go outside, so he opened the door and stood there and tried to talk to me. I couldn't breath and to be honest...whether he meant it or not I took it personally. I LASHED out at him. I said, "Are you trying to watch me fail?" He looked at me dumbfounded and stepped outside. I felt bad about it when I was through, but in that moment that's exactly how it felt.

He didn't think I could do it, though. He has his ways of telling me that without being rude. When I start to go into the basement to train he laughs and says go do your 16th of a 5k. He isn't being mean, he thinks he's funny. I need him to support me in this, but I get it. He has seen this a million times because I have done it a million times. I am determined that there will not be a million and one.

Today is a day off workouts for me and I am glad because I need to rest. Tomorrow, I will work on improving my mile time. We are set to get MORE snow this week, so today and tomorrow will be days of running errands that may not be possible to complete during the week.

132 days to Komen.


  1. HI - WAY TO GO!!! It is so awesome that you finished even with a hubby doing those annoying hubby things! You have to make this for you! When I first started my journey, my husband had seen many false starts too - but that was almost two years and 60 Lbs ago! Now he is just in awe of me and has fallen in love all over again! Keep going! Also really none of my business, but with two little girls in the house, maybe he should ONLY smoke outside...second hand smoke is horrible for little one's.

  2. @Teresa...nothing is off limits here...LOL However to clarify, we just built a new house and moved in a year ago this month. I quit smoking over 18 months ago which is how this journey began. He does not smoke in our home, normally which is part of what made me so angry about yesterday's infraction. I, do, however make exceptions occasionally in my basement. No offense taken, but I did want to clarify the situation. :D

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