To my Facebook friends and Blog Readers:
I owe you a HUGE apology!
Last night, my self pitying hit an all-time low. After I blogged...I tried to see how fast and long I could run. I was thinking about having less than 5 months to get ready for the Komen and I needed a base line. I needed to know exactly where I am and where I needed to be. I should have never done it when I was feeling emotional. Of course, I tanked and then had to express to the world what a complete and utter failure I am. Sorry. No really...Pathetic!
I woke up better this morning. Not completely renewed, but better. I am thankful for words of encouragement that I received.
Awww...you guys.. *insert blushing here*
Then comes more frustration...
*****DISCLAIMER...DO NOT TAKE WHAT I AM ABOUT TO SAY PERSONALLY. If you are thinking about taking this seriously, know that you are NOT the ONLY one. THERE ARE 10's of you (lol)*****
In an attempt to motivate me and to make me feel better, I received several messages, via Facebook, email, instant message, and in person telling me that I do not have to run the Komen. Telling me that I can walk the Komen. I have to admit...it hurt my feelings a bit. It almost felt like people were coming in droves (ok..10's)and telling me not to strive for it. Telling me that I will never do it. (No one actually said this). It kind of pissed me off. I WILL RUN THE KOMEN. I WILL NOT WALK THE KOMEN. and if I don't, it won't be for lack of trying! Friday...I will walk a 5k. In my house, on my treadmill. I will continue to do that 5k until I am strong enough and fast enough to run that 5k in June. Any naysayers? (check with me tomorrow...lol)