Thursday, November 17, 2011

Where I've Gone Wrong

First of's no surprise to any of you that I have done some back-stepping.

Secondly...I need to start from where I am at.

Thirdly...I think I ruined this blog.  Too much whining and complaining.  My whole point in this was always supposed to be to prove that I was more than fat and in all honesty it just started to drag me down.  I am trying to decide whether I want to continue this here or start all over.

Times are tough, but I am tougher.

I love each and everyone that I have met through here and have stepped up to encourage me.  I love the feeling of community that you all have brought to me, the fact of the matter is that I started feeling that I was painting myself as the village idiot.

I'll be honest...people in my personal life pushing me to stop telling my truths here also started weighing on me.  People suggesting that I should lock everything I say away in a personal journal rather than exploit my life.  It made all less freeing for me and I really started to feel censored. 

On the other hand, blogging has been enjoyable.  It kept my feelings on the surface.

 If I decide to move on from here.  I'll let you know and if you want to...I would like you to follow, but I'll understand if you don't. 

Decisions, Decisions!!!