I want to start this post with my number 283.2. It's a loss! Yay! I am glad to see it! I have been asking for it and since I have been at home, my eating habits have changed. My exercise habits however, have not. This is a definite thing that I need to work on, not only to lose weight, but to be strong.
This blog has been a journey for sure and has dealt in the truth of a lot of the hurt and pain that I have felt for a long time. It has represented an overall heaviness that I have felt in my life for, well....for my lifetime. A heaviness on my body and a heaviness in my heart. I have struggled. In the last year, I have dealt with terrible overwhelming sadness from my own anger. I have been angry at everything and everyone, but timid and as a result...I let it fester. This was a huge block to any recovery that I might have ever achieved.
I am in a really good place today. I am in a good place because I reconnected with an old friend. Jesus Christ. You may say...oh no...here she goes, but I will never be ashamed of this relationship. I am tired of living in fear and I have now given my fear to God. I am tired of being angry and I have given that to him as well.
Jesus loves me fat or thin. God has given me life everyday and I have wasted it and treated it as if it didn't matter and I was wrong for that. I have been blessed with a wonderful family and wonderful friends and I have not given him the proper thanks. I am thanking him today and everyday. If I lose readership...so be it. I am starting this journey over with a friend, workout partner, and redeemer. Hope you will come along!
This blog has been a journey for sure and has dealt in the truth of a lot of the hurt and pain that I have felt for a long time. It has represented an overall heaviness that I have felt in my life for, well....for my lifetime. A heaviness on my body and a heaviness in my heart. I have struggled. In the last year, I have dealt with terrible overwhelming sadness from my own anger. I have been angry at everything and everyone, but timid and as a result...I let it fester. This was a huge block to any recovery that I might have ever achieved.
I am in a really good place today. I am in a good place because I reconnected with an old friend. Jesus Christ. You may say...oh no...here she goes, but I will never be ashamed of this relationship. I am tired of living in fear and I have now given my fear to God. I am tired of being angry and I have given that to him as well.
Jesus loves me fat or thin. God has given me life everyday and I have wasted it and treated it as if it didn't matter and I was wrong for that. I have been blessed with a wonderful family and wonderful friends and I have not given him the proper thanks. I am thanking him today and everyday. If I lose readership...so be it. I am starting this journey over with a friend, workout partner, and redeemer. Hope you will come along!
I love this post! And tou help you continue the journey you should download the song shackles by either mary mary or mandisa I prefer the latter. Either way it is a great fitting song, but it is defintely a great work out song.
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