First of all...it's no surprise to any of you that I have done some back-stepping.
Secondly...I need to start from where I am at.
Thirdly...I think I ruined this blog. Too much whining and complaining. My whole point in this was always supposed to be to prove that I was more than fat and in all honesty it just started to drag me down. I am trying to decide whether I want to continue this here or start all over.
Times are tough, but I am tougher.
I love each and everyone that I have met through here and have stepped up to encourage me. I love the feeling of community that you all have brought to me, the fact of the matter is that I started feeling that I was painting myself as the village idiot.
I'll be honest...people in my personal life pushing me to stop telling my truths here also started weighing on me. People suggesting that I should lock everything I say away in a personal journal rather than exploit my life. It made all less freeing for me and I really started to feel censored.
On the other hand, blogging has been enjoyable. It kept my feelings on the surface.
If I decide to move on from here. I'll let you know and if you want to...I would like you to follow, but I'll understand if you don't.
Decisions, Decisions!!!
Secondly...I need to start from where I am at.
Thirdly...I think I ruined this blog. Too much whining and complaining. My whole point in this was always supposed to be to prove that I was more than fat and in all honesty it just started to drag me down. I am trying to decide whether I want to continue this here or start all over.
Times are tough, but I am tougher.
I love each and everyone that I have met through here and have stepped up to encourage me. I love the feeling of community that you all have brought to me, the fact of the matter is that I started feeling that I was painting myself as the village idiot.
I'll be honest...people in my personal life pushing me to stop telling my truths here also started weighing on me. People suggesting that I should lock everything I say away in a personal journal rather than exploit my life. It made all less freeing for me and I really started to feel censored.
On the other hand, blogging has been enjoyable. It kept my feelings on the surface.
If I decide to move on from here. I'll let you know and if you want to...I would like you to follow, but I'll understand if you don't.
Decisions, Decisions!!!
